Physical and mental pain demented inside my soul
fill the tears of this man
Emotionally looking for the comfort of
being what I dream to be,
a man of a man.
Responsibility, Family, Wisdom, Understanding, Hardworking,
Provider, and God Fearing man.
I have discovered something so deep it pains me
to the point of not knowing, who I am.
Vivid memories of being tormented by family
We all go through it, it’s a part of life and growing up.
Searching within to find out “why” my tears consume
my soul so much, that I still don’t understand
“Why my soul cries
Dreams of bad things, but was always protected by
my mother in so many ways
My mother and I never really got along
as a mother and son should in life
Very protective as any son should be about his mother
but something deep down inside
there was something very unsettling about our relationship
Belittled by my mom for not being good,
laughed at by her when others made fun of me
Outsider I grew up to be
doing whatever I could to please her
so I don’t get tormented or laughed at by her or family.
Confused and disturbed, I could only get attention
when I got in trouble or when I was caught in a lie.
So as I grew it was all I knew how to do
I’ve always felt, if she would just say she’s sorry, but it’s not enough.
Even til this day, I still can’t tell her the Truth.
Cos she will think that I’m just doing it to get her attention or I want to hurt her.
I will never get what I’m searching for
Cos i look like my father that destroyed any hope within my mother to love her son
beyond any type of love a mother could give.
That’s why The Tears Of A Man will stay Tears Of A Man
It’s my most hatted enemy inside of me……….
Written by Steven M Taylor 8-29-2006
LYRICS OF MY HEART 