Tears Of A Man

Physical and mental pain demented inside my soul

fill the tears of this man

Emotionally looking for the comfort of

being what I dream to be,

a man of a man.

Responsibility, Family, Wisdom, Understanding, Hardworking,

Provider, and God Fearing man.

I have discovered something so deep it pains me

to the point of not knowing, who I am.

Vivid memories of being tormented by family

We all go through it, it’s a part of life and growing up.

Searching within to find out “why” my tears consume

my soul so much, that I still don’t understand

“Why my soul cries

Dreams of bad things, but was always protected by

my mother in so many ways

My mother and I never really got along

as a mother and son should in life

Very protective as any son should be about his mother

but something deep down inside

there was something very unsettling about our relationship

Belittled by my mom for not being good,

laughed at by her when others made fun of me

Outsider I grew up to be

doing whatever I could to please her

so I don’t get tormented or laughed at by her or family.

Confused and disturbed, I could only get attention

when I got in trouble or when I was caught in a lie.

So as I grew it was all I knew how to do

I’ve always felt, if she would just say she’s sorry, but it’s not enough.

Even til this day, I still can’t tell her the Truth.

Cos she will think that I’m just doing it to get her attention or I want to hurt her.

I will never get what I’m searching for

Cos i look like my father that destroyed any hope within my mother to love her son

beyond any type of love a mother could give.

That’s why The Tears Of A Man will stay Tears Of A Man

It’s my most hatted enemy inside of me……….

Written by Steven M Taylor 8-29-2006